Grief has knocked at my doorstep

Something I wanted to share as not everything in life is Love & Light and also their is suffering that may come at us in so many different ways. Being a human being just like you I am not inevitable of grief, that when it comes it shakes your whole world. The hardest part is the continuous grief, the changes that happen very suddenly in our own bodies, that once I felt safe and assured of everything, now I’m learning all over again to navigate a life in this next chapter. When more sudden grief happens, by the loss of my beloved cat and the sudden loss of a friend, layers upon layers of grief that my own body is processing it all.

Then their is that moment you withdraw, not because you want to but you forget what safety feels like in this world. So my friends I hear you on this journey whever you are too, as their are no quick fixes that society suggests to us, and its a reminder we are all so very different navigating our lifes journeys .

I am grateful for a community where we can be our authentic self, we are all navigating similar moments in our lives and no one truly knows what another is really going through.

I will always show up and with kindness from my own heart in all that I do in this earthly world, our moments here we have together are so realativly short, spead kindness friends, life is too precious.

p.s I write this as a true reflection right now not for any sympathy and to share only honesty and that a reminder ‘that nothing is permanent. All things, all people and all moments are forever evolving x

Moving with gentleness…

Listening within my own heart-mind, this time of the year I move with gentleness. I think its secretly been whispering more and more to me and now I surrender into its flow. This is part of my nature-essence, this gentleness that dances within all of my senses. A part where I surrender to all control and Just be. Not no forever to do lists, which are unachievable or pushing in directions that don’t seem to flow.

I think when we give in and don’t resist to what will be, life just seems to have this natural ease and order.

I really love the Japanese concept ‘Kokoro’ (AI overview), meaning heart, mind and spirit, encompassing emotions, thoughts, and the essence of a person, rather than just the physical organ. It signifies inner feelings, intentions, character, and consciousness, essential in philosophy, martial arts and everyday life, representing a person’s unique inner self and their connection to others, making it a complex idea difficult to translate with a single English word.

I visited my home city ‘London’ recently and saw the Nutcracker in ballet, their was something inside of me watching it that reminded me of my own ‘kokoro’ and a reminder of my own journey with ballet as a child. the gracefulness, elegance, calmness, peacefulness it brings and this inner joy. Their was the gentle presence within the audience and it really did remind me of all the things that really matter. It’s funny last year I really wanted to learn ballet, and never got round to getting a pair of ballet shoes and so on my trip in London was a pair of ballet shoes I finally purchased.

I hope you get to find your gentleness on yourself this Winter and find your ‘Kokoro’.

Resting at the End of the Year

I write this on the very last day of the year of 2025, and a time where there has been a lot of change in my own life. ..

Change can bring about a feeling of unsettling, a sensation my body remembers and is always never sure. You know that sensation where your jaw/throat tightens, breathe gets tighter, mind is not settling and your not sure what to do next, stomach churning, and so much more. Change can also be a moment to ease into a flow of something and also not try to fix or change anything and just allow for what is.

So how do I be with ‘What is’?

Something I may resist more when I need it the most is familiarity, structure, routine and most importantly my rituals. When I come back to all those simple things, the body knows. The ritual of having carved out time for me, to breathe, to move, to allow what is to flow through me, in me and around me, to make no judgement and to Just Be in the moment. When I go with what is, and don’t overthink or put a name or label to it, its almost like this container inside of me opens up, a space that allows breathe to flow, a real sense of spaciousness in my own body. A story my body knows very well. Coming back to my own mat and daily rituals creates that sense to be with ‘What is’.

Moving forward…

I reflect as I rest, and ask myself what intentions I have going forward in 2026. I’ve never been one for new years resolution's as I find they can create way to much pressure on my own body, so an intention sits softly and gently. What lands authentically for me is to live more simply and to keep coming back to things that personally bring me joy.

As I pause… Resting at the End of the Year and to say ‘thank you’ for being part of my journey with me x